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[despairorhope]

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[despairorhope]

Is it what you needed? [he's doing a remarkable job keeping his head on straight considering, well, everything, but it's got to be a struggle. it's all he can do not to squirm, grind against Komaeda's leg or pull away or something because that harsh pressure isn't helping how his veins are on fire right now.]

[hopeindespair]

Mm. I was hungry ... starving.

[ his knee pulls away just a little, and he exhales out. ]

It seems like you're starving for something yourself ... are you going to rut against me like a dog?

[ he says all that without missing a beat; casually derogatory. ]

[despairorhope]

[he wants to he wants to he wants to, hell if he could just convince Komaeda to jerk him off he'd probably die of happiness, regardless of the clusterfuck his other emotions are.

but he... swallows hard and shakes his head.]

I'll pass.

[hopeindespair]

Really, you don't want to be touched at all? You're surprisingly picky for a reserve course student.

[ he's just as venomous despite how much he needed for Hinata just a few moments ago -- how desperate he'd been to feed from him. ]

[despairorhope]

[it hurts. it hurts even more because he wasn't expecting it. but what kind of idiot does that make him? did he think it would make him special, going out of his way to help komaeda out? that's what everyone does. that's what everyone wants. to be near that kind of talent, touch it, siphon off some breath of glory... he really is painfully normal.]

...If that was all you needed, I need to go have my own dinner, now.

[hopeindespair]

[ in every way he was disappointing. maybe it was a bit of a surprise he wasn't asking more questions or being more offended but such a lack of an answer... he sighs, heavily, pulling back from him entirely. ]

Maybe that's all I could expect from you.

[despairorhope]

...Komaeda. [his voice is a little shaky but he tries to still it, snaps his head up so he can look his classmate in the eye.] If you need blood again, I'll help you. If you want to talk, I'm here. But I won't... I won't just stay, to be mocked.

[hopeindespair]

[ his eyes stray to the little pinpricks of bite wounds on Hinata's neck. ]

You're not shocked? You're not going to call the police ... ?

Maybe you're a bit more useful than I thought.

[despairorhope]

[part of him wants to cover the bite, especially with Komaeda looking at him like that but... that would be a surrender somehow. It'd feel like losing.]

...I already knew you're special. This isn't too big a change.

[hopeindespair]

Your lack of a reaction is a bit surprising.

[ he says bluntly, reaching up to cup the underside of his jaw -- his gaze still focused on that bite as he licks his lips. ]

[despairorhope]

[fffreezes, heartbeat thumping.] I could freak out, if you'd prefer?

[hopeindespair]

It's like I thought ... Maybe you just like being used.

[despairorhope]

[(maybe he's right) ...swallows hard.] I just. I want to be able to help you. Is that strange? That can't be unusual.

[hopeindespair]

[ he tips his head. ]

I just sucked your blood without your consent.

[despairorhope]

Yes! I definitely didn't somehow miss that!

[hopeindespair]

But you're fine with it still ... ?

[despairorhope]

I'm- actually pretty mad. A bathroom? Seriously?

[hopeindespair]

Like I said, it suits you.

[despairorhope]

I already said I'm not staying for that kind of talk. [straightens his collar and reaches for the latch on the stall door.]

[hopeindespair]

Shouldn't you be grateful I'm paying attention to you at all?

[ but he's not stopping him. ]

[despairorhope]

[YES and he is he really is that's the worst part of this he only hesitates for a second before he opens the stall and backs out.]

[hopeindespair]

[ serenely even as he leaves -- he himself is leaning heavily against a stall wall, lazy, satiated. ]

See you later, Hinata-kun.

[ an open invitation. ]

[despairorhope]

[PICKS UP SPEED, HE'S OUT OF HERE (fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck) time to book it to his own dorm room so he can jerk off angrily.]

[hopeindespair]

[ HAVE FUN WITH THAT



TIMESKIP??? he'd probably text him a week later


how did he get his phone number. fushigi mystery ]

[despairorhope]

[he tries to ignore the text but lasts like

ten minutes before there's a response.]

'how did you get this number???'